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Wednesday, April 18, 2007

prologue: you will get bored reading this. so just wait for the next post.

this sucks. it seems like everyone else have some where to go, but i dont.
feeling like a loser man. or to say, i am a loser now. being like this.
there's like no cca i can belong to.
so what am i going to do now? i just cant keep waiting and just dont care.
i dont think i've got much of a choice now.
haiz.
but i am just maybe. glad? or so. not the right word but yet. just kind of. that i am no longer in that cca where there's so many facades, politics and 'compeitition' in it.

shall work hard to be in SC first.
thanks to those who had shown me support.
haha, it feels funny. but i appreciate you guys man.
yea, i'll show you too. i can do it ;)
minus the elite factor. yea. you being in that school is one big achievement. i envy you for that. but now, i dont care. keep it to youself.

i shall walk to school more often.
the air in the morning is fresh.
and walking is healthy.
walking with a friend makes it more interesting too.
walked to school with eirene this morning. ahah, saved 45cents of bus fare.
and i walked home after school. saved another 45cents.

just realised i type many 'shall'.

photos of T30 scandals and all are not completed yet!
till then!

haiz. my mum will be residing in my room cause her room's aircon is spoiled! OH MAN. and it will be until we've officially moved house. and it means i cannot use the com late at night. argh. and NOW. after i have decided to choose a small room which supposedly goes with the computer. they are thinking of plaing the com in the their own room as they thinks that i use the computer too much and its affecting me. which is nnnnnnoooooo. i DONT even play computer games anymore. i need some time off. yes, even though i know chatting (too much) is not that good. but dont you guys do it when you were young? but in a different way right?) just give a little bit more, cant you? maybe i am asking a little too much, but that's what i want and i will be just contented. maybe. hahas. but yea.
but i guess you rather give me any other thing other than using the computer. :/
seems as though i am a computer addict.
but being an addict means i cannot restrain my self. but i can! i can still control myself okay..
(i agree with what joanne has written about playing the computer online games..and to think i had spent so much time, energy and MONEY on it..sometimes, you will just be blinded by it.)
if they take the computer away from me, i think i will go into a state of depression la. haha.
they think other people's kids are so guai. ahem. you think you know them so well is it? even if i tell you what that someone has been doing, you will still place a halo over them. yea. i know i am not as good as them. almost 'everything else wise'. but i just cant stand you just demoralizing me. to criticise is to expect failure.- amy tan's book.
and yes. you cannot talked back to a chinese mother. from the same book.
to talk back to a 'chinese' mother is to expect suicide. you can only listen. and shut up. just accepting whatever have been given to you. hunger strikes dont really work man. haha.
there's no democracy.
guessed i've complained too much.
there's a limit sometimes. and you dont respect it.
that's what i disliked the most.
other than that i think you deserves the most credits.

going to sleep my whole afternoon again i guessed.
wasting my time away.
my brain seems to get tired easily. oh dear.
haha. thanks for those many bottles of chicken essence la.